Sleep Disease

Even after all this time has passed,
“One day I’ll destroy you”
Has never changed,
But my eyes just won’t leave that scene,
That long journey of filth and disgust...

Exposing myself in the center of the room,
‘I’m being erased’
Has never left me,
But my ears just won’t leave that sound,
The deep voice of abandon...

Dancing with you away from the circle,
Measuring the distance and running away,
Watching the stars as they slowly faded away,
Greeting a sun which never woke up,
Being the doll has never been easy...

Tonight everything will end,
How many times did I say that to myself?
This will continue as long as he wants,
Giving everything from my pockets,
I can't do anything, but be left with my emptiness
And refilling myself as my goal....

Just wanting to be loved,
Will not have results,
I’ll find a new toy and leave you,
End the game and crush you with my hands,
Because it’s troublesome.

Falling in love isn’t a solution,
A weakness created by a pair of lips,
It’s no use, but live with it.
I can’t do anything but laugh
As you cover your ears
And shut yourself away from the noise.

This beginning is not that different
From the time I was pulled out,
The same touches,
The same places,
My body shivers as it brutally falls
And the floor says “Good Morning”.

Just wanting to be hated,
Will not have results,
It’s just way too sweet
For those sharp exploring tongues.
Closing yourself in your mother’s closet
This is the solution you’ve seen,
How far can you go?

The faint scent of flesh just won’t leave my senses,
It will be your final blow
As your mind creates an arch,
I’ll watch the festival’s fireworks display
From the bottom of your head...
One day I’ll destroy you....